i’m 28 today. for older people that doesn’t sound so bad, for younger people that sounds kind of old, and for me ( and others my age ) that sounds really close to 30. like reaaally close.
i’m definitely not where i want to be at 30, so i have some work to do. and i’m REALLY far from where i thought i’d be at 28 when i was a kid. for some reason i feel like the older i get, the less i’m caring about the future. that’s bad. maybe turning 28 is the time when you really start reflecting on what you’ve done, what you want to do, and what you’re going to stop talking about doing and actually start doing. which is the hard part for me. i am obsessed with fantasizing about new career paths and then moving onto something else. maybe it’s just that when i was in my early 20s, i was content. and now that i’ve aged – forever sounds intense.
career wise – when i graduated college, i thought i’d be happy doing motion graphics full time. since then, my career has organically changed and i edit and do graphic design as well. but sometimes i want to design cards. and sometimes i want to own a sandwich shop. and sometimes i want to live in france and do pottery. i am really terrible at being happy sitting at a desk in an office all day. i can do it – but that’s just not what i want for my life. hence wanting to be a housewife. staying home raising kids and fixing up the house and baking cookies and planning their birthday parties and designing the invitations. maybe i should be ashamed of that, but i’m not. and i like blogging the most. so my goal is to blog full time. it probably won’t happen anytime soon, but if i focus on making it real, hopefully it can be.
personal wise – i worry a lot less about what people think of me than i did when i was younger. and that’s a nice feeling. now i just get to worry about what i think. i’m still waiting for that point in your life when you finally accept the way i look. i’ve heard that happens… when? and generally i’d like to be less self-critical. when i turn 30, i’d like to stop gossiping and i’d like to be happy with what i have. that seems like it’s hard for a lot of people. especially now with pinterest.
shallow wise – i want the following stuff for mah birthday.
one momofuku cake (i’m attempting this myself someday, but won’t someone make me one?!)
two the madewell transport tote is basically the perfect bag.
three i’m in love with this gemz print. in LOVE.
four really wanting a white butterfly chair at the moment. and the cats would love it too.
five i’d love to collect some unique stacking rings to wear with my simple ones.
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+ are you over 30? under 30? do you have the same concerns… and does it get better / clearer?